Raining

Training the dos
Constraining the don’ts

Stop that:
fidgeting
moving
snoring
breathing

Move out of the way

Unwritten expectations
raining on my life
draining my heart
braining men

hallelujah, raining men

Maid your bed
Deal with it
Flash trash
Crashed

filthy faggot scum

Too ……….
To get hitched

Panic attacks poem

Innocent email.
Amygdala prickles-
Lazily uncoiling.

Chest thudding,
Unable to crescendo,
Unable to breathe.

Soft hissing, whoosh;
Light-headed sway.

Meg takes my hand;
Gently urging,
Deep controlled breaths:
I am okay.
Really-yes-
I am okay.

Amygdala fully awakens.

Tears well.
Tumble.
Uncontrollably cleansing.

Hands tremble.

Colleagues swoop.
Futile attempts,
To help;
Too many logins.
Account blocked.

Password reset.
Re-authenticating.

Voicemail: off.
Out-of-office: on.

Amygdala dormant.

Air soft against skin-
Trembling still.