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Airhead in repose

/ Robert / 6 Comments

This watercolour started out as a stylised tree form, nothing more.

For the past eight months, I have repeatedly sketched a Buddha-eque figure. It is based on a photograph of me sitting on a bed taken in May 2023.

I have edited some of the sketches in Google Snapseed and posted them on Instagram. Some people on there have offered to buy them as ETFs. Whatever they are.

I reduced the size of the head of the figure so that the focus of the image is on the body. In one of the iterations of the head, I added a hoop and ‘airhead’ was born. I consider myself a little like a fool or airhead on a hill. Always looking for the greener grass.

Also, I have a tendency to over think things; all I needed to do was sit the figure on a hillock under the tree.

Should I go or stay?

/ Robert / 16 Comments

Every seven or eight years something major seems to happen in my life. I have reached that point again. The choices are to take voluntary redundancy or stay in the place I have worked in since 2010 and try for a new role.

The first option is nicely summed up by the the number zero tarot card, the Fool. I would somewhat blindly be taking a leap of faith. The latter is reflected by the fifteenth major arcana card, the Fool. In many ways my go to position where I feel trapped by the material world. A bird in a gilded cage of my own making.

One is much more riskier than the other and has the benefit of potential growth. The other offers some new challenges in a familiar environment.

I have been wrestling with this conundrum for the last two years. It has taken until now for the workplace change to be officially announced. I have just over one week to decide. What makes it more challenging is that I enjoy working here.

Argh!

Why the picture of kitchen tools, you ask? This is a black and white decision. It needs to be made for balance and harmony to be restored; peace of mind.