I was going to write that I’d been thinking for a while it feels like we’re in a holding pattern. Being in limbo, on the way to something, somewhere.
Today I realised, pondering on an unknown future takes me away from enjoying the present. Where we are now, so much to celebrate.
It’s not the first time this has happened. Previously, shortly after turning fifty, I was checking out retirement living.
Another thought occurred to me while showering: Is it foolish to accept a nagging want to not grow old, opening a world of risk?
Conscious over indulgence leading to an early death.
Avoiding enjoyment in the present, in case, prematurely, the reaper calls. Disappointment in the extreme to embrace life when death comes knocking!